I have been grasping. Pulling. Striving. Stressing.
I have been drowning. Drowning in a sea of overwhelm. Drowning in pool of self-doubt.
I have been living up in my head. Trying to predict the future. Trying to teleport myself there in order to find out if everything works out the way I hope.
I have broken out in Eczema. My bodies response to stress. But I have been trying to push through. Continuing to do, do, do.
It all got too much over the weekend. I collapsed in a heap.
I was tired. Not only in every little cell of my body. But deep through to my soul.
I felt disconnected & defeated.
After wallowing in a sad pile for a bit, I did the only thing I know to do in times like this. And that is to…
I stopped. I took a deep breath. I handed my problems over to the Universe. I released everything that I was grasping on to. I stepped out of my head, back into the present.
And sometimes that’s all you’ve got to do. Take a deep breath. And trust that every thing is going to be okay. That no matter what experience you experience. It is exactly where you need to be.
So now, I am taking my foot off the acelerator. I am winding back on my committments.
Yep. Maybe that means some deadlines won’t get met. But I will come to that when it happens.
Right now. I trust that whatever I am doing in this very moment is enough.
I trust that everything is going to be okay.
And that’s all I can ever hope.
Life is feeling a little more spacious already. The stress is slowly working its way out of my being. I can feel myself pulling back, releasing my grasp on the future. My soul has perked up.
I am here. In the present. Doing all I can. Right. Now.
Blissful Little Tidbits
Sunday morning I rolled out my yoga mat. I spent the next 90 minutes deep in practice.
Expectation and comparison is something I deal with on my mat quite a bit. On Sunday, there was none.
And it was pure bliss.
2. Russell Brands gets sexy
Wow. Never have I heard so much brilliance come out of a man’s mouth at such a quick speed.
I’ve never thought much of Rusty. But he knows his shit. I’m in love.
3. Backyard Birthday Bash
I threw my bestie, Shannon, a belated birthday lunch this week. Just the two of us.
Good food. Good chat. Good times.
Yep. It’s your turn, Sista.
What had you blissin’ out this week?
What perked up your soul?
Sprinkle some magic my way in the comments below.
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